Selena Gomez recently returned from her months-long public hiatus with a hit song and a new romance with The Weeknd, but in her April Vogue interview with Rob Haskell, she opens up about the hurdles she’s had to overcome to get to this point. The 13 Reasons Why producer, who said she’s fallen off the radar to the point where only 17 people have her phone number now (“maybe two are famous”), is upfront about the toll fame has taken on her. “Look, I love what I do, and I’m aware of how lucky I am,” she said. “But — how can I say this without sounding weird? I just really can’t wait for people to forget about me.” From why being the most followed person on Instagram isn’t a good thing to how she managed to make it out of the Disney machine alive, this is one of Selena’s most revealing interviews yet.